Today changed me. I can feel it. I know I love what I do. I know this is really where I am supposed to be. I love witnessing babies come into this world. But today was different. Today I witnessed the sweetest little boy, take his first breath and his last. Today really changed me. I knew inside it would. I didn’t know exactly how I would handle it. But it’s not ME that I needed to be thinking about. Its him. and his Momma, Daddy, his sweet sister and the rest of his family. It’s not about me. It’s about them. Today I knew I needed to be strong. When I posted this morning on Facebook that a family needed prayers for healing and peace. One comment really stuck out to me. “Trust that God put you in their path for a reason.” WOW. WOW. Wow. So true. I am having a really hard time finding the right words to describe how I feel right now. I feel like I really was meant to do this. I am so proud of his Mom. and his Dad too. But his Mom, she’s remarkable. She carried him for 9 months. Knowing the future they faced. They have some incredibly tough days to face on this journey. How does one go on? This is one of the questions running through me. How? It was so hard to watch. So hard to witness, but at the same time incredibly humbling to know that I have the power give this gift to this family. They will forever remember their sons face, because of me. I can only hope that I make as big of an impact on their lives as they made on mine. I really want them to know they aren’t forgotten. and won’t be forgotten as some of their toughest struggles lie ahead. This struggle is real. I really hope to help raise awareness… I only wish I could take their pain away. <3 Today put a lot of things in perspective for me. Take a step back, look around at all you have to love. Keep those thoughts close to you. When you loose your temper or times get hard… Remember… to breathe.
That’s all for now <3
